Now that I have done both the loving kindness exercise and the subtle mind the biggest issue I have is I do not feel as though I did them correctly. It is as if my mind goes in to a calm state and my body wants to sleep and thing about nothing. I really think I should do these everyday, but I just do what is required of me for the week and move on. With both exercises I felt peace and calm. The ocean background is soothing. I did think the subtle mind was a tad to long for a beginner, and maybe that is why I struggle a bit. If there was a 5 min exercise that moved into a 10 min and so on. This would give my mind a chance to learn and advance. I do believe there will be benefit to doing these on a more regular bases. I am not an angry person, but I do hate it when I feel mistreated. I have to share my story today. There have been a few times in my life that someone forgot about me and didn't help me, or helps someone behind me first. I have been known to dwell on the injustice of not being treating fairly. Well, this is where I think these exercises help, today I was getting an espresso and the guy behind me talked long enough for the other gal to make my drink before he paid. His drink was made first though for some reason. I started with my usual feelings of how unfair and directing it inward as to why I was treated that way and how people should treat people that way. I told my self to breathe it isn't that big of a deal. (I usually tell my self this, but still feel cheated) Today after I took a deep breath and released it I felt so at peace. It wasn't a big deal I got my coffee and went on my way.
I personally believe that the spiritual wellness is more about your inner self coming out then a religious thing. When you bottle up your gifts and your ability to share with the world who you really are that is where your spiritual health fails. Physical health is about your body and mental is about your mind, but spiritual is about your heart.

Loving kindness is something that I have had no problem showing to others in is hard to me to show it to myself, as if I am somehow undeserving. I did like the loving kindness exercise, how ever the woman's voice was somewhat hard to listen to: it isn't as soothing to me as the mans voice from the previous assignments. I love the ocean and flute, both of those have always been relaxing to me. I struggled with once again trying not to fall asleep and really focus on the exercise. I do plan on trying to do this everyday because practice makes you better. I would recommend this to others, because I believe it can be beneficial. I think the first time you try something new that it takes a bit of time to get use to.
I believe mental workout consist of two parts, one clearing your mind of negativity and clutter and than two filling it with loving kindness and intentional thought. My mind wanders all the time I can hardly read anything with out it wondering what I am going to cook for dinner or am I going to be able to get all I need to do today. The other thing I do that can be destructive is carry out conversations in my mind. When I should confront someone and I am not sure how I play over all the scenarios in my mind of what I think they would say. Most of the time I think that I just get angrier.
I think the more you do mental exercises the more your phychological health can improve. The more at peace you feel with the world around you as well as iner peace the better you will feel over all mentaly and spiritually.

Week 3

Oh I do think I took the right class for me at this time, because this is just not a good time in my life. The good news is I am going to learn how to turn things around. So how do I rate my health? On a physical level I give myself a 5, I have no major issues yet, but I am not very active. On a spiritual level, 1...I am almost spiritually dead. I have done nothing to feed my spirit is so long. Ok so psychological, I don't know 3. I am not doing much right now, but going to school. I know, I know, I need help. So what am I going to do? Well I keep telling myself that walking cost nothing, I have no one to walk with not even a puppy. I will start walking just up and down the street. Goal number 2, after I move I will get my craft stuff out. I will also spend time with my family more. I might be confusing spirit with soul. 3, I will dig deeper into my schooling and play number games, I love number games. This is just a start for I will be moving shortly.
I did the relaxation exercise and feel asleep lol. I really needed to I guess. I started to hear the comforting voice and that was all I needed. ZZzzzZZ. I will try again if I have time. I hope you all had a good experience with that. Can't wait to see what next week brings.

relaxing

I have listen to the relaxation twice I feel like I just can't do it. I can't relax. Well I did almost fall asleep once to it. His voice is soothing, but my mind is too full. There is too much going on in my life right now. I am on alert, ready for the next thing. It isn't good I know it. I will continue to try, but for now no real success.

Hello, this is my first blog. I really am not that excited about it to tell you the truth. It isn't that I don't like to journal it is just I don't like people to read what I write. I have been a victim of peoples comments which mostly contain, "you can't spell" or  "your grammar stinks." My favorite is, "you need to go to back to school if you want to write." Well I did go back to school. Yay me! So, this blog is a class assignment. This is my journey through integral health. I decided to look at my ancestral heritage and use the language of my forefathers. Therefore, kehon, mielen henki: body, mind, spirit.